METAMORPHOSIS

Time glides by so swiftly.It seems as if I was in first year just a few days back while in reality a few years have passed since then.I have always felt I am living an interesting life,different and unique in its own way.It is only my realisation, I do not know whether in reality it is true or not! But if you persist on believing something strongly, it becomes the absolute truth,at least to some extent.And this is what has happened in my case.

Now while I am going to complete my college life in a few months,I wonder how my days have passed so imperceptibly and quietly without making me realise anything! Needless to mention how much I will miss my friends.I have mentioned earlier,that I have felt always, I have an unique life....quite different from others.During these years I have had the unforgettable experience of studying in two different colleges having extremely different environments.In fact they are as different as 'water' and 'fire' put against each other!
System,atmosphere,culture,students,professors,all vary enormously!
So you can imagine how I had felt in the first day at that college.I had decided to study honours course so I had to change my college,for it did not offer that facility.I felt like a fish out of water...gasping and panicking due to that sudden change in my every day's life ,I used to live.But still it is the speciality of human nature to evolve himself according to the changed environment for the sake of survival.Survival is the trickiest thing,compelling you to do whatever you need,to live gracefully in this big,bad world! Hats off to Mr.Darwin for this discovery!:) I gradually evolved myself according to the atmosphere and a new journey began.

I had spend 2 years of my entire college life in the previous college and another 2 and half years in this college where I am presently studying. In the first day I became aware of all the apparent differences but still it required few more months to rediscover my closeness with my previous college,to rediscover my heart belongs to it.And that disovery was rather melancholic for me as I realised later that it is impossible for me to go back and live my life the same way,I used to.Though I am adaptable by nature still I could not restrain myself from comparing my present situation with the earlier one.And this comparison continued to hurt me again and again,like an open wound which bleeds again and again!....As if I had lost something which was so dear to me.As if the purpose behind my existence is lost somewhere! As if the reason behind my laughter is gone.As if the cause of my rejoice is snatched and as if my wings have been clipped off!I was diffident and that diffidence of my nature made me feel like an unwanted,unnoticed person, subject to ridicule and ignorance!

Back in those days I used to travel by train,local trains.I used to get down at sealdah station and then walk all the way to my college.Now I travel by Metro rail.There are so many differences between these two types of journeys!I love to travel by local trains.I preferred to stand behind the open doors than sitting.When the train reached its full motion ,I used to observe those lush green trees ,fields covered with yellowish hue of mustard flowers,those tiny huts just beside rail lines,and little children glaring at the running train, in awe,and with that twinkle in their eyes!I was always immersed in the beauty of nature until the frightful screaming of some harsh voice making offers of snacks and other food-items ,reached my ears!At that time those hawkers used to appear to me as the most irritating persons on the earth! The little tremblings when the train runs,the blows of fresh ,cool ,gentle breeze which carried with it overwhelmingly sweet fragrance of some unknown flowers and the soothing greenaries around made me forget all my worries! As if this is the heaven on earth! There are so many beautiful places on this earth but still, those collages of nature appeared to me as pieces of paradise at that moment!Though I was merely a part of the crowd but still I used to feel as if I was standing there alone.That immersion of my mind made me feel as if I am a part of the nature,an indispensable part!Slowly and calmly I used to lose all my senses and had the feeling that my existence is gradually melting and vanishing into oblivion!!!!

I miss each and every thing,every moment.The metros may have the so called glamour and glitz but it lacks the vitality and vivacity of the nature which I used to enjoy while traveling by local trains.Every time I listen the sound of running trains I become nostalgic! I miss that soothing effect of the cool breeze,the crowds,those tiny huts and children playing around it and even the screaming of those hawkers!The metros make me feel like I am traveling in a box through a dark narrow tunnel,with some gloomy faced people sitting beside me!

But above all I miss my friends very much.People often dont realise the value of those things they possess,until these are lost! That is the very truth in my case.I had no idea that I love them so much if I had not taken transfer in that college.I do not know whether they miss me as much as I miss them, but still , not a single day has passed ,during which I have not remembered those moments we spend together.My previous college may not be as big as this one but it is special.I am emotionally attached to it!It has offered me the taste of studying in a co-ed college(i used to study in a girl's school),the taste of first love,the taste of genuine and true friendship!
Those students studying there may not be so much modern and stylish but they are truly incomparable!The bonding between us was very strong and intense.People really cared for each other.They genuinely loved each other.I can recall countless moments we spent together.I miss that rapport we used to share!Everything was so heavenly...so special.They are all my angels!I will miss all of them!!
These memories are my souvenirs.


While writing this I had not realised I am crying until I felt everything around me was so opaque that I could hardly see anything !A warm tear drop rolled down my cheek swiftly!.....